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When God is our Only Hope

“So God created man in his own image, in the image of God he created him; male and female he created them. Then God blessed them, and said to them, “Be fruitful and multiply; fill the earth and subdue it;…” Genesis 1:27-28 (NKJV)

Dehan tells his story

My life till now has been one big rollercoaster ride. Everything started when I was still a little boy. I can`t remember how old I was, but I can still remember the deed done to me. A person very close to me treated me like a little girl. I was clothed in dresses, wore heels and make-up was put on me. I was also given a Barbie doll to play with.

I always felt different growing up. I doubted who I really was. Deep within me I felt like I didn`t fit in and I had mixed feelings about who I truly was. I struggled with pornography and I exposed myself to “chat rooms” like Migg33, a website where you can “chat” with the world and send “pics” to one another. You could even hide yourself away from the world and become someone new. I was curious to see what it would be like in a “gay room”. How do you know when you are gay, straight or even “bi”? I asked around and most of the answers where, “you are born that way”. It didn`t take long for the doubt to creep in and become stronger. I always wondered how it would be like to be with a guy rather than with a girl. I became more and more involved with the men and before I could open my eyes I was in a homosexual relationship. I started to think that this would be my life. At one stage I even asked my mom if it was really so wrong to be gay. My mom burst out in tears, because it came down to it that I thought I was gay.

One evening I had to come out with all my lies and the deeds I had done. My parents disapproved of my actions. They were broken. Their only son and now this… They disciplined me by making me break off all contact with my gay friends. My cell phone was taken away and my internet use was restricted. I was not even allowed to drive with the family car. It was all very difficult for me. That evening I reached a breaking point. So I went to my parents who were in their bedroom at the time and asked them for their forgiveness. For the first time in a very long time I called out to God.

Things at home were about so-so. We had a lot of arguments. One Sunday in February 2011 we went to church. It seemed the Lord wanted me to be there. It was like the message in the sermon was meant just for me. I was in a terrible conflict if I should return to God or if I should walk away. If I do decide to turn back to God, the way ahead would be very difficult and I would have to stand strong. Finally without realizing it I stood up. People started laying hands on me and I started weeping. I felt so dirty, like the lost son that lived with the pigs. I felt like I was not good enough for God, but that is not true. The lost son`s father welcomed him back with open arms and put a ring on his finger. That Sunday God did the exact same thing with me. He cleansed me and blew his breath of life over me again. After church my dad and I could weep in each other`s arms…

After that event things went better at home. I made the decision not to be gay, because the word of God is very clear about it, though it was still very difficult not to make contact with the men. Later on I went for counseling to find, deal and uproot the problems. All sole ties were cut off and I was healed. I became involved in a Christian bible studies group and had strong Christian friends who prayed with and supported me.

God gave me wonderful promises that I could hold on to. One of them was Isaiah 22:20-23.

A year later my parents held a Bar Barakah for me, were they blessed me as a man of God. That evening God, with my parents, came to tell me,” Dehan, my son, I love you and am proud of you.” During this time God has also sent me a special someone whom I can share the rest of my life with. What a wonderful God we serve, because he is so true!!

Dear friends, who are involved in the homosexual world, God loves you more than you can ever imagine. He will save you. Just hold on to him.

Derick & Sanet give their side to the story

After this person treated Dehan like a little girl we always prayed the following over him: “Lord, we pray that Dehan will be a man after your own heart, who will love his wife and that he will be a good father to his children.”

As a child Dehan asked us a lot why this had to happen to him. Especially in the beginning of 2011 we could see that he was confused about who he was. He started doubting his identity and with that the enemy received a hold over him.

During 2010 the Lord gave us various promises for our children, especially for Dehan. We held on to these promises. God says in Psalm 12:6 that “the words of the Lord are pure words, Like silver tried in a furnace of earth, Purified seven times.” (NKJV)

As we sat at the table in our house we were shocked to hear that he was already in homosexual relationships. The impact of this was much greater than we could ever imagine. Our only hope was in God. Only with Him could we receive wisdom. Like Jesus heard from his Father what he must do, we must also sit at his feet and hear from the Father what we must do and how we should act.

There is always hope…in God. God`s grace and our obedience go hand in hand.

We immediately went on a 40 day Daniel fast and clung to God in trust for Dehan`s full healing and the generations to come. On the 20th day of our fast, our beloved son made the decision to turn back to God. Psalm 91 was our “Rhema” word for our child. There was no way that we would approve or overlook this sin in his life, because Romans 1:18-32, Leviticus 20:13 and 1 Corinthians 6:10 states very clearly that God hates the homosexual deed.

“How unbelievably wonderful is our God- how rich and wise and full of Knowledge is He! He is the well of everything good. Onto Him belongs all the glory forever and ever.”

Hear an audio testimony in Afrikaans. Dehan Vermeulen; Ouers: Derick & Sanet Vermeulen.